Chapter 269: Chapter 269
The carriage had continued its path indifferent to that little stop and what it had caused.
We slowly separated after the Crown Prince himself had decided to place more distance between us... after saying such a thing with fascinating eyes.
My hands had somehow followed the arms that pulled away from us, and the flush was relentlessly surfacing in our cheeks even when we had no part of us touching the other.
His words were striking. And as much as it pains me to admit... my heart skipped a few many beats during those seconds he held me so dearly. And I could feel it start racing, with founded reasons, since I had heard and felt a replay of the enticing confession about his restrained craves.
The fluster had made me settle our body slightly turned from him... Yet I could tell he was still facing my way. Watching us in a way I don’t even want to imagine because of how more difficult it would be for me to know and continue to look away.
It was odd.
If someone saw us, they would probably think I was mad at him.
’... But we aren’t... which is more conflicting. Isn’t it, Anne?’
At this point, I needed the support of the other soul suffering the tension alongside me. So I asked. Receiving an immediate response in the shape of a nice shiver that both of us probably incited.
’What to do right now... I’m just ignorant... What about you?’
"...."
’Hehe... thought so. You neither...’
An inward exchange commenced between the only one who could understand me since we were practically one, even if not completely fused yet.
Our fingers joined... as expected and naturally. That sight had become a visible connection between us. Which was recomforting as much as it was to feel the warmth of Marianne’s responses on the inside.
’Having rationale can also be troublesome...’ — I then told her with resignation at such truth. — ’But as much as it is troublesome, it is worthy.’
It felt regretful to have so much restraint in our actions when my nature itself was one that liked acting on impulse. But the words of granny Martha are craved in my head since I tried really hard to believe I was her student in a way, hehe.
’My old friend... literally old. I don’t mean that she was for a long time, haha... what am I even saying...?’ — I chuckled at how I was messing up with my randomness so awfully this time while I wanted to say something important. — ’Either way. She used to say that following one’s heart was nice and fascinating... but it wasn’t without the needed caution.’
Following the heart could be dangerous for itself. And wounds could be dealt on it if the heart blinded the mind.
’So... If we want to indulge in what this heart we have wants to blindly go after... we need caution, Anne.’
The circumstances we are in, force us much more. I... sincerely, my heart has no doubt. But the heart is blind... so we ought to make sure.
’We ought to wait for their meeting, sweetheart.’
As much as we want to, it is the best for us now within the uncertainty of this world we live in.
Determination had somehow been reached inside of who we are. Settling down the anxiety we had been fighting uselessly by ourselves for a while... when we should have reached out to the other to win tranquillity faster.
’We are stupid.’ — I inwardly scoffed at the idiotic realisation.
Finally... No. Idiotically finding the impulse to peek at that one I knew had been looking at us because the temporal confidence made me careless.
"!..."
His gaze caught mine immediately. But as much as I knew it had been a hast move on our side, I decided not to turn it away.
I am sure the duchy is still some way ahead. And I can’t just ignore him the whole way back. That’s just cruel and impolite... We are not that kind of person. Not that I know.
Hence, I turned slowly on my seat to meet the calm Prince watching us. Who had held our silence to himself as if reciprocating the solemnity I was trying to maintain between us when alone.
"Were my sayings upsetting?" —... But he ruined it.
’Dude..... I AM NOT UPSET.’
Ahhh... How I wish I had more strength in my jaw to pulverize my teeth out of the rage I’m trying to hold back!
’We took that time to freaking calm down the throb you sent! And the first thing you say is what I didn’t want you to think?!!?!’
This idiot!
"....."
’I know... there’s a reason why I’m saying this on the inside, Anne.’
While holding back the need to smack this royal pervert, I somehow managed to shake my head to convey his mistaken beliefs and lifted my head to see the face that uttered such an annoying thing.
And d*mn it... the serious expression kept intact... Handsomely and sweetly intact.
"... Perhaps it would be wiser for I to halt these sayings? I want to believe... that the time you deprived me of your glance was to find settlement at the sudden honesty I have uttered..."
’... Believe it. Because that’s the whole truth, kinky...’ — I wish I could bite my lip. Since his words are sending throbs again.
"If so... My Lady... Would you allow further conversation in this journey? I am... haha..." — The Crown Prince’s seriousness suddenly broke with a timid chuckle I never thought would fit him so nicely.
But he continued, finding better sitting in his place, looking straight into my eyes with an expectant smile. — "Truthfully, I am aware that... it is the Lady who leads our conversations."
"..."
"I have noticed... the lady is who knows how idle talk is born. While, although I am ashamed to admit it, I am lacking such skill."
’Gosh...’ —... It was the only thing I managed to think at the adorable man that even in his prominence, could transmit the shyness he concealed inside when saying this.
To think... he would recognise he was lacking in the communication department in quite a different way than we did so nicely...
’So cute.’ — I added. Moved by the effort it must be for the proud Male Lead in front of me. Inwardly smiling tight lipped also shy by the sight.
"The times when the Lady shares carefree conversations with me... something like that, may you enable such a conversation to emerge now?"
The mere question made me giggle.
As if I was seeing the unconfident Dioclecià asking for the obvious in the shape of a grown man, this Crown Prince seemed as, or more adorable than my little friend. And it was delightful. Greatly delightful to see.
My eagerness was conveyed immediately.
Looking for the post-it notes that should have been in my lap I realised I had probably dropped them when the carriage suddenly jumped.
He understood what I was aiming to do since I started to look aroun the floor to find them.
Joining my search he also gave a glance while I even raised my skirt a little since I couldn’t find any sight of them.
"Wait." — He then ordered with a hand in halt as he bent. Reaching with his long arm where I couldn’t see because of my skirt. — "Here it is, my Lady. I apologise. I kept speaking while you were devoid of your stack. I was thoughtless."
’hehe... it’s fine... You’re so well mannered, kinky...’ — His apology itself was thoughtful enough to make me smile further.
Receiving my post-it notes preciously like the treasure they currently were for our mute existence, I went right into writing the aid he needed for the carefree talk he... And now me too wanted us to have.