Chapter 16: PUSH AND PULL
The evening air was thick with silence, that kind of heavy quiet that made even the tick of a clock sound louder than it should. Elena paced the length of the balcony, her silk robe whispering against the tiled floor as she stole glances back at the bedroom. The Don—Matteo—sat in the chair near the fireplace, his dark shirt undone just enough to tempt, his eyes following her like shadows she couldn’t shake.
"Stop pacing," Matteo’s voice broke through, low, commanding, threaded with irritation. "You’re making me dizzy."
"I’m not pacing," Elena shot back, though her steps quickened, defiant.
"Yes, you are. And you’re doing it because you want me to ask what’s on your mind."
She froze mid-step, her hands curling at her sides. "You think everything is about you."
"That’s because, cara mia, everything in this house is about me. You should have learned that by now." His lips curved in a dangerous smirk.
Elena turned sharply, walking toward him, her robe falling open just slightly at the neckline. "I’m not your pawn. I didn’t ask for this life. You dragged me into it."
"And yet," Matteo leaned back, tilting his head, "you wear silk instead of rags. You sleep under a roof guarded by men who would take a bullet for me. For us. Tell me, Elena, doesn’t comfort soften your resistance?"
Her breath caught, not because his words were true but because of how his eyes burned when he said them. That same fire that scared her also pulled her closer every time.
"You think money and power are enough to cage me?" she asked, her voice trembling between fury and something more fragile.
"No," Matteo said, standing now, closing the distance until she had to tilt her chin up to meet his gaze. "I think your own heart cages you. You want to hate me, Elena, but you can’t. That’s the game we’re playing. Push, pull. You burn, I burn."
She shoved at his chest, but he barely moved. "Don’t twist this into some... some grand romance. You own me. That’s all."
His hand caught hers, his thumb grazing her palm as though reading the truth in her skin. "If I owned you, you wouldn’t argue. If I owned you, you’d already be in my bed, begging."
Her cheeks flamed, and she pulled back violently, her voice breaking. "You’re insufferable!"
"And you’re intoxicating."
The silence snapped between them like glass breaking. Elena’s heart thudded in her chest as she tried to breathe past the heat in the room. His nearness was dangerous, but so was her inability to step away.
"Do you enjoy this?" she whispered. "Pushing me until I can’t tell if I want to strangle you or..."
"Or kiss me?" he finished for her, his grin sharp but his eyes softer, betraying something that unsettled her even more than his arrogance.
"Don’t flatter yourself," she muttered, though her voice lacked conviction.
Matteo leaned down, his mouth close to her ear. "I don’t need flattery. I read desire the way other men read numbers."
Elena’s breath hitched. She wanted to slap him. She wanted to surrender. She did neither. Instead, she whispered back, "And what happens when the numbers don’t add up?"
"Then I change the game," he said simply.
Her chest rose and fell rapidly, anger and longing warring inside her. She turned from him, needing space, needing distance. "I don’t know how you do this. One moment you’re cruel, the next you’re..." She shook her head. "Human."
"Cruelty is armor," Matteo admitted quietly. "Human is what I am when I let my guard down. Don’t confuse the two."
Her throat tightened at his candor, and for the first time she saw something unpolished in him, something raw.
"You make it sound like I’m dangerous to you," she said softly.
"You are." His words were so honest she almost stumbled back.
Her eyes darted to his, searching, testing. "Then maybe you should have left me alone."
"Too late for that."
The tension coiled again, pulling her into his orbit despite every warning in her head. She hated the way his presence filled every inch of her awareness, hated the way her body betrayed her with the smallest spark of want.
"Matteo..." she started, then faltered, because she didn’t know whether she was going to beg him to stop or to stay close.
"Yes, Elena?" His voice was patient now, waiting, watching her wrestle with herself.
Her lips parted, but the words wouldn’t come. Instead, the silence stretched, taut and fragile, until he reached out, brushing a strand of hair from her face.
"You’re trembling."
"I’m not," she lied.
"You are." His thumb lingered at her temple, a touch so careful it disarmed her more than any roughness could have.
She swallowed hard, her anger slipping away, leaving only confusion and raw ache. "Why me?" she asked suddenly, desperate for answers. "Why did it have to be me?"
Matteo’s jaw tightened. "Because when I saw you, I knew you were the only one who could challenge me and survive. Every other woman bows. You fight. And I..." He exhaled sharply. "I need that fight."
Her heart twisted painfully. "So this is entertainment for you? Watching me burn?"
"No." His voice dropped lower, almost broken. "This is survival. Don’t you see? You keep me human."
Her knees weakened, and she turned her face away, because if she looked at him a moment longer, she might surrender completely.
"You’re dangerous," she whispered.
"And you’re my danger," Matteo said. "That’s why I can’t let you go."
She laughed bitterly, though it sounded more like a sob. "Then we’re both trapped, aren’t we?"
He caught her chin, forcing her to meet his gaze. "No, Elena. We’re both alive. And that’s more than most people in our world can claim."
Her eyes stung, tears threatening, and she hated him for seeing them. "Stop saying things that make me forget who you are."
Matteo leaned closer, his breath warm on her lips, his words a final blow to her defenses. "And stop pretending you don’t want to remember who I could be."
The silence after was unbearable, thick with everything unsaid. Elena finally pushed him away, retreating toward the balcony, though her heart still pounded with his nearness.
"Stay away from me tonight," she managed, her voice hoarse.
Matteo didn’t move. His smile was sharp again, but his eyes betrayed him. "I’ll stay away from your body. But your mind? Your heart? Those are mine already."
And with that, he turned back to the fire, leaving her trembling in the doorway, caught in the cruelest trap of all—her own longing.