Chapter 23: A FRAGILE SOFTNESS
The morning light found me before my head did. It came thin and gold through the shutters, painting the room in shy rectangles. Luca’s arm was warm across my waist, steady as a promise I hadn’t asked for and couldn’t refuse. I lay very still, listening to the faint rhythm of his breathing, and for a sliver of time the world outside his walls felt as if it belonged to someone else entirely.
"Wake up," he murmured, voice rough with sleep.
"I am awake," I lied, turning my face into his chest so I could pretend his heartbeat was the thing that had always kept time for me.
"You smell like sand and silk." He smiled against my hair. "Odd combination."
"That’s new. I’ve been known to wake up like laundry and guilt." I pushed my lips into a smile and felt him chuckle.
"You’re impossible," he said and the word was a caress, not a condemnation.
"You love it." I nudged his ribs. He made a sound that could have been an agreement.
He sat up, the sheets falling away. The morning cut through him differently than through me; he carried the weight of the house, the weight of his name, and still somehow he made space for me inside it. "Coffee?" he asked.
"Yes, and don’t poison it this time." I sat up too, hair a halo of chaos, and reached for the robe that lay over the chair.
"No promises." He rose, all long lines and quiet danger, and crossed to the window. The view of the garden was small and deliberately cultivated, like everything in this place. From here I could see how he curated the world—order, control, perfection. I wanted to crawl inside that little patch of green and find a place to breathe.
He came back with two cups steaming, handing me one as if handing me an anchor. "You slept better?" he asked.
"I slept in your arms," I said instead. "That’s not the same thing."
He sat down beside me, close enough that the edge of the bed dipped with our weight. "It is for me."
"Which is dishonest." I tilted my head, testing him. "You said last night you couldn’t resist me."
"You misheard me." He was mock-offended, but his thumb found the bone of my wrist and held there.
"I didn’t mishear anything."
He exhaled, soft and petulant, like a man who hates admitting defeat. "I didn’t mean that like you think. I meant... I mean I don’t get why you unsettle me." He stared into his coffee like it might offer an answer. "You’re not like anyone I’ve ever known, Aria. You’re teeth and flame and then—" His hand brushed my cheek and for a second the Don peeled back to reveal a man, not a facade. "—then you’re the quiet that makes the rest of it make sense."
The honesty in his voice unmoored me. "Why tell me that?" I asked.
"Because I want you to know what you do. Because I’m tired of pretending I don’t notice when you linger at the edge of things." He turned his head to look at me properly, the morning catching the steel-gray of his eyes so they weren’t armor for a second. "And because I don’t like being this weak."
"You’re not weak." I reached up and covered his hand with mine, absurdly small against him. "You’re careful."
"Careful is a different kind of prison." He let a bitter laugh escape him. "Do you know what it felt like, hearing that they’d targeted you? Like someone had taken a match to something I didn’t realize I’d been building for years."
"You’re melodramatic."
"And you’re merciless." He kissed my knuckles then, a quick, reverent press that set an ache in my chest.
We sat like that for a while—speaking only enough to keep the silence from becoming a thing with teeth. It was a fragile peace, held together by coffee and the small, ordinary rituals of people who were too new to belonging to be comfortable with it.
Later, in the library, he found a record and placed it on the old gramophone. The notes were soft and imperfect, a song I’d never heard him play, but it folded around us like a second skin.
"You didn’t have to do this," I said as he sat close on the leather chair.
He rolled his shoulders, casual and deliberate. "Do what? Make you soft for me?"
"You always make everything about you." I watched him duck his head back against the leather, the lamplight painting his cheekbones gold.
"I don’t make it about me," he said. "You make it about you. You make me want things I promised myself I would never want."
A beat. "Like what?" I asked.
"Like—" He laughed, short and raw. "Like staying. Like waking up and finding you in my bed and deciding I’d prefer this over any plan I had."
"Plans are overrated," I told him.
"How convenient." He turned, close enough his breath dusted my face. "And what would you prefer, Aria Valencia? Keep your old life or try this one?"
I swallowed. The old life was a jagged stone I kept in my mouth because I’d been taught to swallow whatever kept me alive. "I don’t know."
He reached out, cupping my jaw. "Then let’s close the Chapter of the list of things you’re sure of. Start with small things. What do you want for lunch? What do you want to wear tomorrow? What do you want when you think my name is an apology and a promise both?"
My laugh was half a sob this time. "You make it hard to be petty."
"I like your pettiness." He grew serious then, the playfulness folding into something like confession. "I like that you argue. It makes me remember I’m alive."
"Is that what we’re doing? Waking each other up?" I asked.
"Yes." He didn’t hesitate. "And teaching each other how to keep what we want."
He stood and crossed the room in three strides, taking my hand and leading me towards the piano. "Play," he ordered, voice soft. "I want to hear your hands. Music is less dangerous than words."
"You’re always less dangerous in theory," I muttered, sliding onto the bench.
I had learned, in little ways, to coax the keys without shattering my composure. My hands trembled at first, then fell into a melody that felt like forgiveness. Luca listened with his eyes closed, head tilted. When the final note hung between us, fragile and bright, I reached for him and found him waiting.
"Do you ever think about after?" I asked, the question like a stone tossed into still water. "After the contract. After whatever this is."
He looked at me as if I’d asked him to trade kingdoms for a truth. "Sometimes," he said. "And mostly it terrifies me. But I think about staying. I think about you standing next to me when the council meets. I think about you telling me to stop being a monster and actually meaning it."
"You think I could do that?"
"I think you could make me try." He brushed the hair behind my ear and paused. "Aria....."
"Yes?"
He leaned close and there was that charged pause, the world compressing into a tiny room of breath and heartbeat. "I don’t want to spend my life in a house of locks and rules and never tasting what it’s like to go soft."
"Soft sounds dangerous from your mouth."
He smiled then, not the cold smile that had a bodyguard’s precision, but something intimate and quick. "You’re dangerous and I’m tired."
"Then what?" I whispered.
"Then we keep doing this." His voice dropped. "We keep stealing light and music and coffee and terrible puns, and we try to be better than the men who trained us. And when the night comes that this world demands blood, we stand back-to-back and burn with it, or for it, or away from it. I don’t know yet which. I only know I don’t want to find out without you."
His fingers curled around mine, warm and certain. I realized then that whatever else I was sold, bargain, heiress, pawn—here, in the soft morning, I was chosen.
He bent and kissed me, slow and careful. Not demanding or desperate, but a seal stamped across everything we’d said. The kiss tasted like cigarettes and citrus, like him. I let it take me. When he pulled back, the light in his eyes was steadier.
"Stay," he said. No command this time, only an offering.
I nodded, and the nod felt like the first honest thing I’d given him. "Stay," I echoed.
We didn’t solve the world then. The day outside the walls still had teeth. But in his arms, between music and coffee and small, ridiculous confessions, the world felt like something we might be able to survive together.